Flannery O’Connor, one of America’s greatest writers, her name is synonymous with the Southern Gothic. However, just today, a friend and colleague posted a link to an article with excerpts from O’Connor’s prayer journal. Within them were expressions of the writing insecurity we all feel from time time. There is a comfort in reading and understanding that those same doubts and questions are more universal than we can imagine.
Dear God, I am so discouraged about my work. I have the feeling of discouragement that is. I realize I don’t know what I realize. Please help me dear God to be a good writer and to get something else accepted. That is so far from what I deserve, of course, that I am naturally struck with the nerve of it. Contrition in me is largely imperfect. I don’t know if I’ve ever been sorry for a sin because it hurt You. That kind of contrition is better than none but it is selfish. To have the other kind, it is necessary to have knowledge, faith extraordinary. All boils down to grace, I suppose. Again asking God to help us be sorry for having hurt Him. I am afraid of pain and I suppose that is what we have to have to get grace. Give me the courage to stand the pain to get the grace, Oh Lord. Help me with this life that seems so treacherous, so disappointing.
h/t to Julia Marie Myers for sending this to us! Read the original article here: http://flavorwire.com/424886/flavorwire-exclusive-read-an-excerpt-from-flannery-oconnors-a-prayer-journal/